perfunctory

[BEFORE YOU CHOOSE TO CONTINUE READING,I have to WARN YOU before you are being annoyed my post.I HEREBY APOLOGIZE]

The call again...messed my mood up.Or should I say I was the first starting to mess matters up then as a return I was being messed up.
yea..I should give respect to the person who spent $ to call me up...
yea..I should be giving positive responds to the person who spent $ to call me up..
yea..I am very sensitive until I have annoyed others with my sensitivity but I have never realized it till I have been told by you[ thanks]
yea..I am OVERPROTECTED..not only you felt so ,so DID OTHERS..!?
yea..When people comment on my attitudes, I give shitty respond which usually annoys others
yea..I am just as if a piece of rotten apple,apple with lots of worms in it.
yea,an apple which is totally WORTHLESS,totally no other ways to be a better apple
yea..Those people who have commented on me ARE TRUE FRIENDS
yea..ESPECIALLY THOSE who have COMMENTed ME ;behind..&
discussed with others then..giving ME THE BEST COMMENTS THEY HAVE ON ME.

BIG THANKS

yea..I..blablablablablablablablablablablablablablablablablablablablabla
* Have you ever asked me how I felt upon the comments..
*HOW COULD EVERYONE DECIDE ON WHAT THEY FELT.I MEAN..my feelings upon the comments I have had now.

美言不信,信言不美

I understand this phrase so well,thanks to darling when I was 15
DARLING has had told me before about my expression especially when others giving comments on me..yea... maybe I don't know what my expression was like when I heard all those comments....JOE,either[thanks]
*Dennis,fighting,pls don;t feel tired for the preparation of every class,you mustn't*hugs*

*BUT I SWEAR,I AIN;T MAD OR WHAT,I WAS JUST THINKING WHAT I HEARD ABOUT ME,MYSELF,ABOUT OTHERS CRITICIZE!COS I NEVER THOUGHT OF MAKING OTHERS TO FEEL SO ON ME
BUT UNFORTUNATELY,NO ONE BELIEVES ME...NOT EVEN ONE ...THAT''S SO PATHETIC OF ME..

yes,THENG SENG TOLD ME ;TO ME ,YOU ARE SORT OF GRUMPY AND LIKE TO TURN UP WITH SOUR EXPRESSION AND LIKE TO COMPLAIN [thanks]

I AM TRYING HARD TO CHANGE,[cos i know it will help for my current &future state]
IT JUST SO HURTING THAT WHEN YOU ARE TRYING TO CHANGE,OTHERS who don;t really UNDERSTAND YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES SAYING THAT YOU HAVE NEVER EVER TRIED YOUR BEST TO CHANGE,YOU ARE JUST MAKING THINGS TO THE WORST SITUATION..
or they would say
EVEN HOW MANY YEARS IT WILL TAKE,STILL YOU COULDN'T CHANGE

I am so freaking tired,...if and only if I ain't in this world,I won't have to bother all those...
bother about the one I love the most who doesn't believe me AT ALL...who usually hears to others and make comments on me..
PERFUNCTORY SMILES or NODS..yes that's the answers ,which I usually get when others are so kind of fed up or I have annoyed them with my questions.. [tq]
I AM FINE[seriously no] but no one ever trying to believe, what if I said I am not fine,then the question will always be
WHY?AGAIN?WHY ARE YOU ACTING SO..?Why do you always NEED TO DO SO..AS IF we are at the wrong side,then you are so as making yourself having sense of GRANDEUR about yourSELF..
BLABLABLABLABLABLA
*And don't you realize how great you are cos you have made me fed up when you pointed sth out but pathetically ended up with BLABLABLABLA?[thanks]

*IT'S BETTER TO LET OTHERS THINK YOU ARE AN IDIOT THAN TO OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND PROVE IT*

*sorry BRO..I did do my part..sorry*
Ciao~